Friends of my heart, life is and has always been a battle although I think we very rarely think of it that way. I woke up this morning in a struggle and wondering if I could or even if I should share this with others. Human nature has always wanted to cover itself with the best it can offer, but many of us will realize that there are times when we simply don’t have the strength. Maybe this is one of those times. I have been battling for awhile and praying for strength while at the same time wondering why I am so weak. Surely my Lord would not be proud of me because I am not being what He created me to be. And yet on the other hand just maybe He loves me more than I know and is desirous of giving me real peace, never again to be misplaced or lost. Maybe it is time to simply give the reins to Him and let Him choose the destination. I have known many brave people in my time, those who have been able to cover in their own way their fear and simply choose to be with the One who truly loves them. What is wrong with me?
Life events do come into play when attempting to understand the complexities of our earthly existence, but they don’t always make it easier. Yes, Lord, we really do love Thee and we want more than anything for You to be proud of us and yet can’t our last curtain call wait a little longer, maybe next week, or next year? What am I saying – that who I want to be is simply a false front, covering the weakness of my humanity? Surely not! You have been more than gracious to me and You know I would not choose to offer You any less than my best. And yet ----?
Friends, even as I write this I know this is not what my Lord wants, but I also know that there are many like me who wonder if we have the strength to give our Lord all He expects and desires for the life He created. Maybe there is still time for me to change, time for me to understand why He created me and time for me to finish my task. Oh, how I hope so! I really do love You, Lord!
Okay, let’s get real! We do have the strength and we do serve a purpose and the Lord will always be our backup for His glory. He alone knows just what He has in hand for each of us as we finally come before His throne. He created us, He loves us and He will continue to believe that His people will come to understand this great and mighty love He has – we are His children and He is our Father. We are so very blessed.
Okay, now that we have that straight, what is it, Father, that You would have me do this day? We know there are many in this world who do not know You, but how can we reach those as we are limited by time and space? We know that prayer is one very good way, but is there more? Do our eyes sparkle, does our very presence cause those around us to feel there is more to this life than the things we desire? Can and will we finally admit to ourselves as well as others that we have a choice to live the lives we were created to live? It has been made very plain to me this morning so I guess I will put aside my fears and weakness and gather myself together to confront my day with the joy of the Lord; the joy which passes understanding. I will lift up my eyes to the hills – from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber….The Lord shall preserve your soul. The Lord shall preserve your going out and your coming in from this time forth, and even forevermore (Psalm 121:1-3; 7-8).
I take, O cross Thy shadow for my abiding place;
I ask no other sunshine than the sunshine of His face;
Content to let the world go by, to know no gain or loss
My sinful self, my only shame, my glory all, the cross.